Picture of a rearview mirror reflecting the road behind the car
Short Stories

Demanding Visibility

The door slammed behind me, muffling his roar.  Maybe I could no longer hear him at that moment, but I would probably hear him later because it was certainly not the last time we were going to have this conversation, if you could even call it that.  Most conversations I have do not include faces red with fury, the slamming of hands on the walls and tables, spit from angrily enunciating words while shouting, and only one person vocalizing their thoughts while the other shrinks into their seat. Most conversations do not look like this, except for the conversations I have been having with him lately.

“Where are you going?” my sister asked from the stairwell as I powered down the hall.

“Out,” I replied tersely, grabbing my car keys and slamming the front door behind me.

No amount of doors slammed could quell the rage that I had to suppress while he had verbally torn me apart.

Tobacco and spearmint lingered on my tongue, and I touched my lips, smiling as I remembered why.  With my other hand, I twisted the key in the lock and opened the front door. I froze in fear when I saw a figure standing in the stairwell, but then I realized who it was and relaxed, although annoyance quickly replaced that feeling.

“It’s past 11.  Where have you been?”

“Out,” I stated.

“An eleven PM curfew means you have to be here at eleven, not leave where you are at eleven,” she explained, irritated.

“I lost track of time.”

“Who were you with?”

“My friends.”

“Which friends?”

Exasperated, I threw my hands up in the air.  “I already told you!”

“Don’t raise your voice at me. Remind me.”

“Marisa…the usual,” I explained, struggling to level my voice.

“Where did you go?” she inquired.


“Out where?”

“Dunkin, Starbucks, whatever was open.”

“Those places close at ten.  What did you do for an hour?”

I narrowed my eyes at her.  “I’m going to my room,” I replied, shrugging past her and heading up the stairs.

“Answer my question!” she yelled after me.

“We were outside.  I’ll make you an itinerary next time,” I said, slamming my bedroom door behind me.

My bedroom door burst open and she stormed in, leering down at me as I lay in bed.

“Good morning,” I sarcastically greeted her, sitting up.

“What does this mean?!” she asked, desperation evident in her voice as she threw papers onto my lap.

I briskly shuffled through them and then calmly met her watery stare.  “Where did you find these?”


“Well, I don’t know what they mean,” I replied, handing them back to her.

“Is this who you are?” she asked shrilly.

“No.  I don’t know.”

“What do you mean you ‘don’t know?’” she shrieked.

“I don’t know!” I yelled, tossing off my blanket and standing up.  “I told you everything I know!”

She challenged me with her eyes for a few beats before turning and storming out of my room, slamming the bedroom door shut behind her.

I slowly opened my bedroom door, and we tentatively emerged from behind it.  My heart pounded as she looked down at us from the stairs that led to her master bedroom.  She spoke sternly and carefully.  After a brief interrogation, she dismissed us with a threat to call the police if I bring the woman beside me home again, and she informed me that we were going to discuss this later.  As per usual, there probably wouldn’t be too much discussion.  Numbly, I nodded, and then we raced down the stairs, seeking out safety in my car.

She leaned over the middle barrier in the car and tilted her head up toward me, smiling.  “Alright, well I have to head home, but text me when you get home.”

I nodded and leaned the rest of the way to kiss her awaiting lips.  When she pulled away, she smiled at me, causing my heart to flutter.  She looked out the windshield and started talking animatedly about our weekend plans, but then she paused.

“Hold on,” she said, her eyebrows furrowing as she focused on the rearview mirror.  “What’s that?”

I looked at where she was pointing.  Behind the rearview mirror was a small, black microphone.  My heart raced as realization struck.

“Can I pull it down?” she asked.  I silently nodded in acquiesce.

She turned the microphone over in her hands, raising it closer to her eyes.  “I don’t know if this is a recording device, or if it’s just part of your car.”

“I don’t know.  My dad regularly works on the car, so I don’t know.”

She put it back behind the rearview mirror and looked at me.  “I’ll take a look at it more closely tomorrow when I see you.  Try to relax for now.”

I tersely nodded.  She lifted her hand to my cheek, cupped it and pulled me toward her for a last goodbye kiss.  I didn’t enjoy this one as much as the one before.  “It’ll be okay,” she murmured.  “Text me.”

Then she opened the door and climbed out of my car.

I reluctantly got into the passenger side of my car.  He wanted to take a drive with me to get gas, which was thoughtful but I knew he had an ulterior motive.

We rode in silence for ten minutes, and after he told the gas attendant to fill it up, he began his speech.

“I don’t understand you anymore,” he confessed, looking over at me sadly.

I met his eyes and replied, “I’m just not hiding anymore, but I’m the same.”

He shook his head.  “No, you hid from us for years.”

“There was never a reason to bring it up.”

“You could’ve brought up that you were struggling.”

“I needed to figure things out for myself.”

The attendant returned to the driver’s side mirror, and my dad handed him cash.  We sat in silence while the worker counted the change and handed it to back to my dad.  My dad restarted the ignition and pulled out of the station, heading home.

© 2016, 2018 Vic Romero

In honor of Pride Month, which has passed but…I thought I’d share regardless. 

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