There are about two months left of school, and then I’m off on a plane to Europe where I will get drunk in every country and hopefully hit up a couple of gay bars.
I’ve been listening to a ton of angsty music lately…like screamo and heavy metal. I have always enjoyed this type of music, but I don’t usually listen to so much of it. When I used to exclusively listen to this style of music, I was unhappy and angsty. So it’s concerning me that all I want to listen to is angry music.
Part of it may be due to being sexually frustrated. I have been attracted to several people over the past year or so, but it hasn’t been reciprocated, until now. It’s kinda frightening me and I keep questioning the situation as well as myself.
I’ve been on summer break for three weeks now, and it’s been a hodgepodge of days.
The first couple of days, I went on a cleaning rampage. I’m still not done, but it’s coming along. I’m trying to finish this Friday so I can spend the rest of the summer doing other things.
Then I went to Florida to help pack up my grandparents’ house to be sold. It was a sad trip and it felt weird that none of them were there…but I found some cool photos and books that reflect my family history that I’ve kept. It was also nice to go down there to enjoy the house one last time and to support my dad. We took a couple trips to the beach too.
In my post about my coming out to my friend yesterday, I neglected to mention that I got my prom dress yesterday as well.
I am dreading prom because there is an excessive amount of “prama” around it.
Girls in my school, and across the nation, make prom Facebook groups to post the dresses that they buy and threaten other girls to not buy those same dresses. I’m serious. Look it up. It was on Yahoo! News once. No girl wants to match.