Finals are in about a week and a half now, and I’m actually not stressed out. Or maybe I’m just in denial.
But seriously, it doesn’t take much to get me stressed out and you’d think since these are my first finals that I’d be losing it, much like how I was when it came to midterms. I’m not losing it though! I’m actually okay…really exhausted but I’m doing okay…maybe even great!
Yesterday she texted me.
She is my former best friend. Former because I fell in love with her and then pushed her away. Too far away.
After coming out to myself and being able to confidently write “I like girls”, I enjoy talking to her again. I allow myself to feel all the gooey emotions that she evokes in me. I allow myself to love her.
But before, when I denied myself to feel love or lust for women, I was always angry at her.