the way you kiss me-
i feel alive
your lips passionately mash against mine
and your fingernails drag lines
down my shoulders
arms
thighs
the way you kiss me-
i just might die
your tongue probes my mouth
you moan
i cry
begging you to be completely mine
© 2015 Vic Romero
This weekend was amazing.
My girlfriend (we got back together on Monday, September 8th at like 2:30am) just left about a little bit ago. I feel really sad…like I started crying a little bit but I think that’s mostly because I’m homesick and now that she’s gone I’m alone again. But I do think a part of me is really sad because I’m scared because…I feel kinda ruined.
god i’m so sorry i have broken your heart i’m so sorry i have gone about this all wrong i’m so sorry i have wished all along that we could get along but i screw it all up and i’m so sorry i keep tearing you apart with every article of clothing that i pack it feels to you like a smack like a stab in the back i’m so sorry that this hurts you so bad i’m sorry but it hurts me too my heart is covered with black and blues and i’m sorry i hadn’t told you the truth but it’s hard to be honest when i couldn’t even be honest with myself i didn’t know how to go to you i didn’t know how to ask for help i’m sorry but i was lying in the dirt of the tears that i had been crying for hours for days for years i was dying for so long but at least all of my tears showered the withered flowers so they lived on so they grew up to be strong as i was corroding away as i was deteriorating into dust but at least i becoming something because before i was nothing i was just living to waste my time until i died i was making the motions and imitating life…
but now i feel whole i feel content with myself and i don’t apologize for finally being who i am
© 2014 Vic Romero
feeling low
insecure and alone
why would i feel this way after hanging out with her, now that i’m home?
everyone fucking knows…
i’m now swimming in a fishbowl
and i’m naive
inexperienced little me
lamer than anything that comes to be
not good enough, i need to leave
i just want to run
leave her hanging on
eventually she’ll let go too
i just want to run
run from her because she makes me feel too good
and it’s all corrupt
it’s all fucked
from the beginning anyway
i will only be ending it all
before the unstable structure that we’ve created falls
on its own
or maybe i will wait it out
and see if she can accept me
but i don’t want to ask
because i’m scared she’ll reject me
© 2014 Vic Romero
She picked me up five minutes to six. She drives a little silver car…a Dodge I think.
Upon opening the passenger side door, the stench of air freshener, cigarettes, and perfume wafted up my nose. I breathed the smell of her in and bid her ‘hello’.
She was wearing a long-sleeved, blue and grey striped shirt and dark blue jeans. Her long hair was pulled back in a ponytail, as always. She looked really good.
Then she pulled out of my driveway and headed toward our First Date destination: The Olive Garden. My family thought that I was going to the mall.
Hello, everyone, hope you all are doing well and you have been having a good new year so far.
My new year has been pretty incredible. I came out to some of my friends and my sister, I found out that the girl that I have been crushing on likes me back (we’ve been talking nonstop for almost three weeks now, it’s been established that we like each other…) and…oh yeah! I went on a date with her! Yesterday, January 20, I had my first official date with anyone, and my first date with her…it was amazing. I’m still in shock that she likes me back, that she has liked me since I started working in July, that we went on a date and that she had a nice time and wants to see me again, that most of her friends know about me and her best friend wants to meet me…it’s all crazy exciting and overwhelming.
Anyway…I have intended to write everyday in 2014, but that didn’t happen once I started talking to her. I was too happy to write, or too…I just couldn’t write.
But I do want to catalog (mostly for me) all that happened between me and her for the past two weeks so…I transferred the texts I sent to my cousin about all my problems/concerns/events onto here because I don’t feel like typing it all again lol. The following texts are only my half of the textversation (texting conversation).
All I want to do
Is lose myself in you
In your words
In your eyes
In your touch
What I have now is not enough
© 2014 Vic Romero
<<exciting blog tomorrowww…>>
I’m so fucked. So, so incredibly fucked.
It was Sunday night. I made the boss I have huge crush on a mix CD after we had talked at work about bands that we liked…then I texted her asking if she was going to be at work on Tuesday morning because I was planning on going to my job to eat with a friend, and I wanted to give my boss the album.
Ever since that night I texted her, we have been talking…non-stop. Like…long messages.
snow has been falling
covering the frozen earth
it’s the angels’ breath
snow has been falling
for what seems like hours now
a blanket of white
snow has been falling
and i’ve been falling for you
ever since we met
i am falling hard
as the flakes drift down to earth
just…delicately
perhaps the snow banks
will soften the blow when I
crash into the earth
for you’re the angel
breathing out the white snowflakes
cold, but warms my heart
© Copyrights 2014 Vic Romero
I love you…
But you won’t ever know
I need you
But I have to let you go
Again
Sure, we can be friends
If I don’t mind
Having my heart ripped to shreds
Every time I see you
Every time I get near you
Every time I hear you laugh
All I want
Is to be with you
Forever
Hold your hand
Lean my head on your chest
Feel your heartbeat
Feel the warmth of your breath
As it tickles my neck
Your lips, sweetly caress…
These are only dreams though
Pathetic fantasies
Although I’m pretty sure
You are the only girl for me
© 2014 Vic Romero