• Speaking My Mind

    Reflecting on My 2019 Goals

    Now that it’s May (how is it May already?!), I would like to take a moment to reflect on my goals for 2019. Below is where I am at in my 2019 aspirational list.

    Top 10 Goals for 2019

    1. Allot weekly yoga studying time – I was doing this…then I stopped. I am going to be doing some yoga workshops though.

    2. Establish a consistent meditation practice, at least weekly – Always a work in progress. However, my boss has introduced me to a local Buddhist meditation center that I now visit.

    3. Plan and execute a chakra yoga class series for the spring – May not happen until the fall?

    4. Research and book a yoga workshop/training for late 2019/2020 – This is happening!

    5. Confidently making decisions! (Such as for grad school) – I have been actively working on trusting my inner voice.

    6. Integrate cardio at least weekly into my routine – Thanks to my yoga job, I have definitely been integrating cardio via a cycling class. I love the community and I love cycling!

    7. Work daily on a long-term writing project – I’ve been in a rut lately so writing has taken a back burner unfortunately.

    8. Continue to maintain this blog and begin planning how to expand it – I am maintaining this space but I’m not expanding it…I don’t think expanding it is my goal. I just want to be creative more frequently.

    9. Complete the rest of the half-read books that I have. – I have finished several half-read books, such as Jane Eyre and Pride and Prejudice. I had an affinity for older literature for a few months ago.

    10. Create a ritual for my ancestors – This still needs to happen

    What I’d like to focus on at least until the Summer Solstice is creative writing. I’ve been reading so many books lately and I’ve been inspired by all of them, but I haven’t been taking the next step, which is to use my inspiration! I think I just need to find a better balance between reading and writing.

    I feel that way with yoga too. I spend most days practicing asanas, but I need to integrate more studying of Yoga philosophy. Initially, I thought I needed to improve my sequencing to become a better teacher, but currently I think I need to explore spirituality.

    Now I invite you to take this opportunity between the Spring Equinox and the Summer Solstice to realign and refocus. Are you on the track to achieving any goals? Have you neglected some goals? Have your desires for 2019 changed?

    Let me know in the comments below!

    Xx Vic

  • Speaking My Mind

    2019

    Hello, everyone and welcome back to my blog!

    I unintentionally took a longer-than-expected break from posting on my blog. In fact, I hadn’t planned to take a break at all, but due to the excessive pressure I was putting on myself to write as well as all of the craziness that is inherent to the holiday season, I went on a break. I’m glad I am returning now that I naturally feel inspired to write.

    During my time away from my blog, I took the GRE, celebrated a stressful version of Christmas, became absorbed by a romance novel series, and relaxed with my friends and my girlfriend. I’m quite relieved that the holiday season is wrapping up and I’m eager to embark on a new year!

    Anyway, I wanted to write a bit about my goals for 2019. Before I share them though, you can check out my post about my goals from 2018! Below are additional goals I had for 2018 that were written in a private journal.

    1. Save money
    2. Invest in myself: blog
    3. Challenge myself: perform
    4. Be creative: crochet and write
    5. Get published!
    6. Apply for PhD
    7. YTT + teach! (500hrs in 5 years?)

    I’m proud to have accomplished many of my goals for 2018 such as graduating from college, writing a killer thesis, investing in myself, challenging myself, and exploring my creativity more.

    There are a few aspirations from 2018 that I’m still working on though, such as getting a job and applying to grad school. Additionally, some of the items on that list are long-term goals, such as getting published and completing 500 hours of yoga teacher training.

    This year, for 2019, I have decided to approach my list differently: I have created resolutions that are short-term oriented, so I can actually accomplish them all in one year. These aspirations break down my longer-term goals into smaller, feasible tasks that ultimately serve as the foundation for the long-term goals I had created in 2017.

    Top 10 Goals for 2019

    1. Allot weekly yoga studying time
    2. Establish a consistent meditation practice, at least weekly
    3. Plan and execute a chakra yoga class series for the spring
    4. Research and book a yoga workshop/training for late 2019/2020
    5. Confidently making decisions! (Such as for grad school)
    6. Integrate cardio at least weekly into my routine
    7. Work daily on a long-term writing project
    8. Continue to maintain this blog and begin planning how to expand it
    9. Complete the rest of the half-read books that I have.
    10. Create a ritual for my ancestors

    I’ll definitely be keeping you all updated on my 2019 endeavors. I’m feeling quite optimistic about them.

    What are your aspirations for 2019? Please share them below!

    Xx Vic

  • Speaking My Mind

    If I Wasn’t Afraid, I Would…

    • Move out of state
    • Take a trip
    • Choose a grad school program
    • Apply to a grad school  program
    • Light a match
    • Drive on the highway
    • Chant more
    • Be confident
    • Be positive
    • Introduce more “yogic” things to my yoga class
    • Write a book
    • Develop my own business
    • Make malas
    • Reconnect with mentors
    • Pursue my passions, even if I’m uncertain where they will lead

    What does your list look like?

    xx Vic

  • Speaking My Mind

    “Now I’m A Warrior”

    I never particularly liked Demi Lovato.  It’s not that I hated her or anything, I just didn’t understand the hype around her because I never listened much to her story.  But after being exposed to her by my best friend from high school and my ex, I’ve grown to truly admire and respect her, and lately I’ve been listening to her music for inspiration and empowerment.

    As I’ve written before, I’ve been having a hard time adjusting to college life.  Things are getting better for the most part but there are still moments when I’m just like “I don’t belong here,” “What am I doing?,” “Why can’t things be like they used to be?,” and “I want to go home.”

  • Poetry

    it comes in waves

    the quietness envelops me as i’m sitting here alone strewn out to sea

    i go back and forth with the waves up and down as my mind craves

    unstable and emotionally dependent god i’m disgusting i’ve had enough i’m fed up

    i want to end this attempt at psychological suicide that bears a heavy burden on my mind

    i’m happy yeah i’m fine

    but then the waves come crashing down i hear the roars in my ears

    i cannot deal i cannot heal

    with these thoughts swirling and

    how can i make lasting relationships if i’m so pessimistic if i’m so hateful so self-loathing

    so i turn to something like myself i turn to something distasteful

    scrolling through the mounds of flesh they all look the same and ultimately i’m no better than before

    i want i need i’m desperate for something more

    i can’t remember why i loved her why i liked her why i loved him

    heck i cannot even remember what it was like to feel something so overpowering that i could lose all rationality and only feel

    so numb so dumb no fun is how i live how i try to live how i can only deal

    and it’s so surreal it hurts although i claim to be healed

    when it comes to stumbling across old messages to stumbling across old messes to stumbling across her

    when i’m walking with my head facing the ground facing the floor

    but tripping is to be expected when i’m not paying attention

    because i’m always distracted by my thoughts of wanting more

    ©VicRomero

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