• Speaking My Mind

    Raw Write

    I’m hurting a lot.

    The family that I feel I had last year…my support group…well it doesn’t exist anymore. At least it doesn’t feel like it.

    My ex doesn’t even wanna be friends, my best friend rarely acknowledges my texts…all my other close friends are in different states far away and I feel alone because I haven’t established another solid support group.

    I have friends, but I feel weird talking about things that are actually bothering me with them. I can talk to my RA about things that are bothering me, but I can’t really be friends with her because she’s my RA.

    I feel alone…scared…and rejected.

  • Poetry,  Speaking My Mind

    I DESERVE BETTER

    I want the kind of love that makes time

    The love that I’m certain is all mine

    I want the kind of love that doesn’t toy with my emotions

    The love that doesn’t make me cry enough to fill oceans

    I want the kind of love that satisfies what I believe I deserve

    I’m sad to realize that I don’t think that kind of love will be from her…

    Maybe in a matter of time…

    Because time brings change

    Maybe she can be what I need

    Or maybe she’s not fit to end up with me

    But I know what I want now…after failing a second time

    I want love that regardless of what happens in each of our lives

    That love will always be there for me…through thick and thin

    That love won’t commit any sins

    That love will always find time

    And that love will always be forever mine

    © 2014 Vic Romero

    About the poem…

    Last night I got trashed at an insane party, was approached by two interested guys, and cried myself to sleep.

  • Speaking My Mind

    A Happy Hump Day and Some Hairy Subjects

    I had a really great day today, one of the best days I’ve had in weeks.

    I woke up this morning with no message or call from my ex (I had asked to talk to her last night) so instead of just…waiting…I sent her an open and honest text about what has been bothering me because in the other text I sent her, I acted like everything was fine when it wasn’t. I’m still waiting for a reply but I’m just glad that I got it off my chest because I feel more proactive and in control rather than just waiting to get shit on.

    After that, I had class and although nothing special happened, I had a great time after that.

  • Speaking My Mind

    You’re Full Of It

    I feel…exasperated.

    So here I am…single because my ex wanted to take a break to work out some things in her life.  I respect that, I understand that, but what I DON’T understand is why she was all “I still want to text because I don’t want to lose my best friend” and then fucking doesn’t text me.

    Please, hear me out.

  • Speaking My Mind

    Slutty Sunday (and Saturday)- Our Second-Chance Birthday Weekend

    This weekend was amazing.

    My girlfriend (we got back together on Monday, September 8th at like 2:30am) just left about a little bit ago.  I feel really sad…like I started crying a little bit but I think that’s mostly because I’m homesick and now that she’s gone I’m alone again.  But I do think a part of me is really sad because I’m scared because…I feel kinda ruined.

  • Poetry,  Speaking My Mind

    Time To Let Go

    You think things could get better?
    I’m a believer, but now I’m not so sure
    I’ve ruined the sleeves of my sweater
    Crying over what I can’t seem to cure

    Everything I do makes things worse
    Irreparable damage I guess
    Nothing can be reversed
    I feel depressed

    All I want is her
    But I don’t know what she wants anymore
    I keep dreaming of how things were
    Although those memories only reopen old, painful sores

    © 2014 Vic Romero