• Speaking My Mind

    Embracing Balance

    My life has been off-balance over the last month becauseĀ I’ve lost touch with the Feminine. The Feminine is rest, fluidity, flexibility, creativity, and ease.

    Instead, I’ve been operating predominantly in the Masculine, which is strict/rigid, constantly-on-the-go, and seeking to produce results.

    The reason I’ve been trapped in Masculine energy is a result of obtaining a part-time job (yay!), which has caused me to feel overwhelmed by all of my responsibilities. The manner in which I’ve been attempting to manage my responsibilities has been by adhering to a strict schedule with little opportunity for rest.

    When I’m not working, I am doing homework/studying. Then I’ll squeeze in a workout in an attempt to maintain balance, before going to bed. Fortunately, I don’t work on the weekend, so I’ve been able to relax into the Feminine a bit then, but the relaxation is constricted because I have impending assignments hanging over my head.

    In an attempt to reduce stress from school, I started waking up earlier to do homework before work. Despite my attempts to minimize stress, work tends to be an additional source of stress for me.

    The stress caused by my professional and academic lives has adversely impacted my ability to pursue hobbies and interests that I enjoy. Some of those hobbies include making yoga videos, writing, meditating, reading, and cooking.

    The combination of stress and inability to enjoy my hobbies has contributed to feelings of failure in regard to the commitments that I have made to myself and to others. Additionally, I have been suffering physically from the impact the lack of balance in my life has caused, the most notable impact being frequent panic attacks. I’ve started to fall into old, ineffective habits to cope with the stress.

    I don’t want to worry anyone by sharing this. The fact that I’m even allowing myself time to write, as well as the fact that I want to write about this at all, is evidence that I’m actively working on finding and embracing balance. It’s important to me to work on this, especially now, because the fall semester is beginning in a few weeks, and I want to approach it from a rested, balanced state of mind.

    I also want to remember that when I lose balance again, because I undoubtedly will, I will undoubtedly seek to embrace balance once again. It’s never too late to create the life that best serves you and allows you to serve others.

    Let me know in the comments if there are ways in which you can embrace a little more balance in your life!

    xx Vic

     

     

  • Speaking My Mind

    2019

    Hello, everyone and welcome back to my blog!

    I unintentionally took a longer-than-expected break from posting on my blog. In fact, I hadn’t planned to take a break at all, but due to the excessive pressure I was putting on myself to write as well as all of the craziness that is inherent to the holiday season, I went on a break. I’m glad I am returning now that I naturally feel inspired to write.

    During my time away from my blog, I took the GRE, celebrated a stressful version of Christmas, became absorbed by a romance novel series, and relaxed with my friends and my girlfriend. I’m quite relieved that the holiday season is wrapping up and I’m eager to embark on a new year!

    Anyway, I wanted to write a bit about my goals for 2019. Before I share them though, you can check out my post about my goals from 2018! Below are additional goals I had for 2018 that were written in a private journal.

    1. Save money
    2. Invest in myself: blog
    3. Challenge myself: perform
    4. Be creative: crochet and write
    5. Get published!
    6. Apply for PhD
    7. YTT + teach! (500hrs in 5 years?)

    I’m proud to have accomplished many of my goals for 2018 such as graduating from college, writing a killer thesis, investing in myself, challenging myself, and exploring my creativity more.

    There are a few aspirations from 2018 that I’m still working on though, such as getting a job and applying to grad school. Additionally, some of the items on that list are long-term goals, such as getting published and completing 500 hours of yoga teacher training.

    This year, for 2019, I have decided to approach my list differently: I have created resolutions that are short-term oriented, so I can actually accomplish them all in one year. These aspirations break down my longer-term goals into smaller, feasible tasks that ultimately serve as the foundation for the long-term goals I had created in 2017.

    Top 10 Goals for 2019

    1. Allot weekly yoga studying time
    2. Establish a consistent meditation practice, at least weekly
    3. Plan and execute a chakra yoga class series for the spring
    4. Research and book a yoga workshop/training for late 2019/2020
    5. Confidently making decisions! (Such as for grad school)
    6. Integrate cardio at least weekly into my routine
    7. Work daily on a long-term writing project
    8. Continue to maintain this blog and begin planning how to expand it
    9. Complete the rest of the half-read books that I have.
    10. Create a ritual for my ancestors

    I’ll definitely be keeping you all updated on my 2019 endeavors. I’m feeling quite optimistic about them.

    What are your aspirations for 2019? Please share them below!

    Xx Vic

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