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    2019

    Hello, everyone and welcome back to my blog!

    I unintentionally took a longer-than-expected break from posting on my blog. In fact, I hadn’t planned to take a break at all, but due to the excessive pressure I was putting on myself to write as well as all of the craziness that is inherent to the holiday season, I went on a break. I’m glad I am returning now that I naturally feel inspired to write.

    During my time away from my blog, I took the GRE, celebrated a stressful version of Christmas, became absorbed by a romance novel series, and relaxed with my friends and my girlfriend. I’m quite relieved that the holiday season is wrapping up and I’m eager to embark on a new year!

    Anyway, I wanted to write a bit about my goals for 2019. Before I share them though, you can check out my post about my goals from 2018! Below are additional goals I had for 2018 that were written in a private journal.

    1. Save money
    2. Invest in myself: blog
    3. Challenge myself: perform
    4. Be creative: crochet and write
    5. Get published!
    6. Apply for PhD
    7. YTT + teach! (500hrs in 5 years?)

    I’m proud to have accomplished many of my goals for 2018 such as graduating from college, writing a killer thesis, investing in myself, challenging myself, and exploring my creativity more.

    There are a few aspirations from 2018 that I’m still working on though, such as getting a job and applying to grad school. Additionally, some of the items on that list are long-term goals, such as getting published and completing 500 hours of yoga teacher training.

    This year, for 2019, I have decided to approach my list differently: I have created resolutions that are short-term oriented, so I can actually accomplish them all in one year. These aspirations break down my longer-term goals into smaller, feasible tasks that ultimately serve as the foundation for the long-term goals I had created in 2017.

    Top 10 Goals for 2019

    1. Allot weekly yoga studying time
    2. Establish a consistent meditation practice, at least weekly
    3. Plan and execute a chakra yoga class series for the spring
    4. Research and book a yoga workshop/training for late 2019/2020
    5. Confidently making decisions! (Such as for grad school)
    6. Integrate cardio at least weekly into my routine
    7. Work daily on a long-term writing project
    8. Continue to maintain this blog and begin planning how to expand it
    9. Complete the rest of the half-read books that I have.
    10. Create a ritual for my ancestors

    I’ll definitely be keeping you all updated on my 2019 endeavors. I’m feeling quite optimistic about them.

    What are your aspirations for 2019? Please share them below!

    Xx Vic

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    2018

    Happy New Year, everyone!

    I’m currently enjoying my last winter break before my last semester of school begins, and I wanted to take some time to write about some goals for this year! This year will be more tumultuous than any previous year I’ve had because I will no longer have the consistency of school that I’ve had in my life for my entire life. It’s simultaneously exciting and dreadful, but I think reflecting on this past year as well as setting out some goals for this year will be beneficial.

    First, let’s reflect…

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    Mopey (Sophomore Slumping)


    I wrote this with the intention of posting it around the beginning of the New Year but clearly, that is not the case.  I’ve decided to make the first of February my New Year since January wasn’t my favorite month and I feel like I fucked many things up so…Happy New Year!! Whooooo!

    Here’s the original post:

    The spark I had last year has long been extinguished and I just..feel like crap constantly. The fall semester sucked because I didn’t like many of my classes, my social life consisted of flaky, asshole friends and getting wasted every Thursday, Friday, and Saturday to forget about the rest of the week, hooking up, not working out, and I have had no drive, motivation, or self-pride.

    It’s been really bad. I thought winter break would help me feel better but instead I’m even more mopey. I have a trip next week to DC, which I was super ecstatic for last year but now I could give less of a shit. Ugh. I need to get out of this sophomore slump or else I’m gonna be miserable and fuck myself over so…here are a list of goals, or cinnamon goals as Hannah Hart says, that I have for myself this year to make the spring semester my comeback of the year.

    2016 Cinnamon Goals!! Whooo!
    1. Go to the gym two times a week. – I got really buff last year, but I’ve completely let myself go. So all through the rest of January and into February, I’m going to go to the gym twice a week. Then, as I rebuild some confidence and maintain this routine, I’ll increase the frequency to three times a week in March.
    2. Party less. – Instead of partying three times a week, I’m going to reduce it to one time a week. Three times a week was a lot of partying..I often didn’t get up until 1am so my weekends were super unproductive, especially considering how that only gave me a couple hours to do work because the pre-games started at 8pm. (An exception to this rule is syllabus week).
    3. Engage more with people that reach out to you. Focus less on people that don’t. – Every time I got drunk, I texted this girl that never gave me the time of day…I got to stop! Focus on people that show that they care and want to spend time with me! I also need to hang with people that actually like to do activities with me, not just party. I want well-balanced friends. Lastly, I need to stop trusting people instantly and assume we’re best friends. It’s always a disappointing outcome.
    4. Forgive those that have hurt me. I tend to hold grudges…many of them being subconscious. I’ve realized this when it comes to my parents and as I’ve become more romantically involved with someone new. Old wounds that I thought had healed with time actually never healed, they still hurt. Time only covered them up by allowing the pain to dull for awhile. For some bizarre and awful reason, I am convinced that how I was treated by cruel people before, I’ll be treated like that again by everyone I meet. I need to work through these thoughts and focus on letting them go. I’m not sure how to go about it though..therapy again? Yoga? I don’t know. I need to figure this out..any suggestions?
    5. Join another club. It’ll help me meet more people and it’ll inspire me, which I desperately need.
    6. Speak my mind, because my silence will not protect me. – Be unafraid to share my romantic emotions. Be unafraid to ask for what I want.
    7. Have alone time twice a week. – One of these days should be during the week to give myself a break, and another day should be on the weekend, instead of partying.  Value myself more.
    8. Get closer to my family. -Be less afraid to be myself around them. Bond with them more.
    9. Research/Internship. -If not this summer, definitely next summer.
    10. Learn how to blow bubbles with gum. – When everyone was learning how to blow bubbles, I had braces so I never learned.
    11. Stop apologizing for being an adult who is still learning what matters, who matters, and which direction to go. – Thought Catalog 

    In March or April, maybe I’ll follow up with my progress and/or additions to my Cinnamon Goals.

    What have been your goals for 2016, and how are they coming along??

    xx Vic

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    My New Year’s Resolution 2015

    I want to keep putting myself out there and see where it leads. I want to push my limits and take more risks. Do what makes me nervous. I don’t want to settle. I want to change the world and change myself. I want to make more friends, more lasting connections…I want to have a deep connection with someone. I want to be grateful and thankful everyday for all that I have been blessed with and I want people to know that I appreciate them. I want to feel beautiful. I want to expand my mind and become more independent. I want to be happy…but I don’t want my happiness to be reliant on others. I want to be careful with the people that I let into my life. I want to SPEAK UP. I want to have opinions and share them, no more shying away. I want to listen and get to know people. Listen to their stories. I want to knit and write letters. I want to try to get closer to my sister. I want to leave lasting, good impressions…but if they don’t like me it’s not a reflection of myself. I don’t want to need to be liked by everyone. I don’t want unnecessary stress. I want to be like Taylor Swift and Demi Lovato and other strong women in my life and in the world that challenge me to be better and do better. I want to travel. I want to have faith in myself and my abilities but realize it’s okay to have doubts as long as they don’t hinder me from trying. I want to reach out to my mom and dad for support because they love me. I want to have other people to rely on for support or at least advice or a shoulder. I want to follow my heart. I always want to do my best, and my best is good enough. I want to create memories with friends and get involved in clubs and events on campus. I want to be fearless. I want to make myself feel beautiful and love myself more than anyone else. I want to value myself. I want to be honest with myself. I want to be my own best friend. I want to be smart with money but not stingy. I want to be compassionate and caring. I want to love. I want to dance and drink with friends. I want to dress the part. I want to smile and laugh and get out of bed. I want to wipe away my tears with dignity. I am proud of myself and how far I’ve come. I want to allow myself to change and grow without judgment. I want to forgive and move forward. I want to trust that “everything happens for a reason.” I want to be honest and open with my feelings and thoughts. I want to be considerate. If there are doubts, heed them. I want to get physically stronger and increase my agility. I don’t want to “just get by,” I want to live to the fullest and positively reflect on everything. I want 2015 to be the best year yet because I am in control of my life.

    -Vic

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