Eventually, friction invites a flicker
A flicker of light and warmth
Warmth to suffocate the interminable cold, dry evenings
Evenings that are otherwise desolate of life
Life is reborn from the lonesome spark
Sparks burst into bright, hot flames
Flames crackle as they dance together
Together they crawl upward to kiss the luminescent moon
© 2018 Vic Romero
- Move out of state
- Take a trip
- Choose a grad school program
- Apply to a grad school program
- Light a match
- Drive on the highway
- Chant more
- Be confident
- Be positive
- Introduce more “yogic” things to my yoga class
- Write a book
- Develop my own business
- Make malas
- Reconnect with mentors
- Pursue my passions, even if I’m uncertain where they will lead
What does your list look like?
I’m taking the train instead of driving today, which is pretty nice because I can relax and write a little bit about what’s been on my mind lately.
The yoga training program has been exhausting me, thus I missed writing this week. I also have been really missing my girlfriend. We have conflicting schedules at the moment so we only get to see each other for about three hours once or twice a week. I realize this is more contact than some relationships get but regardless, it’s still difficult.
In addition to these emotional and physical stressors, I’ve been thinking about what I want to do after this training more because the graduation date is near. I’ve also been thinking about what I need to do to support myself. I want to apply to part-time positions and to teach yoga on the side while I apply to graduate schools.
I’ve really been procrastinating the graduate program part, not because I don’t want to go to grad school but because I wish I didn’t want to go to grad school. I know it’s going to be a lot of hard work, regardless of the field I pursue. It’s also going to take a lot of work to get into a program. My girlfriend believes I’m afraid, which I definitely am…so this is where the “capital-Y, Yoga,” as my instructor calls it, comes in. I need to start taking the lessons I’ve been learning through Yoga philosophy and my asana practice into my everyday life, particularly into my dharma.
Dharma is a Sanskrit word that means something along the lines of purpose or duty. Right now, my short-term dharma is to do the work to figure out what my next move is. Additionally, from my perspective right now, I believe my over-arching dharma is to teach.
Next week I only have two days of yoga training so I will have an ample amount of time to study for my exam as well as to apply for job opportunities and take my higher education more seriously. Next Sunday is my deadline for graduate program research. I want to find three programs I am interested in.
Is there anything you’ve been procrastinating that you want to work on too? Let me know in the comments below!
your fingers graze my arm, leaving goosebumps in its wake
i shiver as you overtake
all of my senses
relishing your caresses
your dark, passionate eyes fill my vision
my fragile heart quickens
gentle kisses tease me around my lips
your fingers poke and probe underneath the material at my hips
your intoxicating scent overwhelms me
i hear your breathing become heavy
then you finally allow me to taste your sweet lips
in the softest kiss
© 2015 Vic Romero
the way you kiss me-
i feel alive
your lips passionately mash against mine
and your fingernails drag lines
down my shoulders
the way you kiss me-
i just might die
your tongue probes my mouth
begging you to be completely mine
© 2015 Vic Romero
During summer orientation, I fell in love with an improv club. They performed a skit about sexual assault in college, and it was mind-blowing. I had never seen anything like it before…it was raw, emotional, and provocative. I wanted to see how I could get involved during my first year of college, so I signed up.
In college, I attended a variety of clubs, but the improv club was the only club that I loved. I don’t act, but the club isn’t solely a performance club. During meetings, we played games, ate food, had discussions about interpersonal violence…and unlike other clubs that I had attended, everyone in this club was welcoming and friendly.
It’s been about two weeks since I’ve made this list and I’ve been single for a month (although the first two weeks seemed more like a temporary break so I still felt committed to my ex).
It’s weird because I’ve spent most of 2014 with my ex and I’ve known her since 2013 and now she’s just completely gone from my life because that’s what she wants I guess but…it’s just weird. An adjustment on top of all the other adjustments I’ve been making since late August when I moved into my dorm at college.
I feel like I’ve been doing a lot better lately…there are times when I miss her a lot, times when I’m angry with her, times when I feel…like it’s hard to accept what happened because I don’t have much closure..but for the most part I’ve been so busy with school and getting more involved…connecting with friends…that those feelings quickly dissolve. If they don’t go away, I write about them so they can be out of my head.
Anyway, I just wanted to update this list…share what I’ve been doing to help me move on and other projects I plan on taking because I’m passionate about them and they make me happy.
Her scent suffocates me
It is buried deep into the seams of her bedsheets
In which I am entangled in
I drag my fingers across her soft skin
And her breathing quickens
Her beautiful eyes are the only thing that fills my vision
I love her, she’s the only one that I want
We have a unique bond
That will not break
Our love is not a mistake
© 2014 Vic Romero
On Friday I stopped by my job, where my girlfriend was, to hang out with her during her break. She had said she got something for me a few days before, and we barely saw each other last week so when we were actually together she said she wanted to give it to me.
I became incredibly nervous because not only does receiving gifts make me uncomfortable sometimes, my best friend had said that Janice* had texted her a pic of what the gift was and that she told Janice that she should wait until at least our three months to give it to me because she thought it would make me uncomfortable.
So she sat in my car with the gift and I paced around the car, freaking out because of what my best friend said. My girlfriend was also a bit nervous because of what my best friend had said haha
Well eventually she gave it to me…here’s what she gave me…