• Speaking My Mind

    Faith + Bravery: Taking the First Steps on a New Adventure

    My aunt took me and my sister out to lunch, and as per usual, we had a wonderful conversation.

    She had recently returned from a trip to Memphis with her husband, and they went to several Civil Rights museums. I confessed to her that the things I must do in order to get to the next chapter of my life seem impossible, so she told me this quote she saw in the museum that blew her away:

    “Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.”

    ― Martin Luther King Jr.Let Nobody Turn Us Around: Voices on Resistance, Reform, and Renewal an African American Anthology

    When she shared it with me, I was also floored. This quote is obviously in regards to civil rights, however, it also encapsulates exactly what I need to do that would answer my own questions:

    How do I get a car so I can be independent? How do I get a job but also prepare for the GRE’s and figure out what doctorate program I want to do? How do I make new friends since all of my closest friends are moving away? How do I become a self-sufficient adult even though I’m afraid to do so?

    Between these worries and fears as well as my disastrous room, which seems to reflect my inner turmoil, I have been feeling so overwhelmed that I haven’t done much to move forward at all. Naturally, I’m not going to get to the next chapter if I’m not taking any steps at all…thus, I should trust the Universe more. I should also trust myself more.

    Evidence of the Universe conspiring to support each individual is evident in my own life in the past, as well as in my girlfriend’s life currently. Per Max Ehrmann’s “Desiderata: A Poem for a Way of Life” :

    “You are a child of the universe,
    no less than the trees and the stars;
    you have a right to be here.
    And whether or not it is clear to you,
    no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.”

    I’ve sited this quote what feels like 10 times now on my blog, yet I always need to be reminded of it. Perhaps I should make it one of my mantras in addition to the Sanskrit mantra, Ananta Swa Bhava, I repeat for my japamala meditation. It means my state of being is infinite and boundless.

    I am infinite and I am a child of the Universe too so…I need to have a little more faith.

    So the first steps I will take until my yoga training starts in a little over two weeks will be to apply for at least one job a day and to finish organizing my room. Instead of watching endless YouTube videos at night, I will read material that will inspire me especially because I have an obscene amount of partially read books on my Kindle. I will also allot one hour each day toward researching doctorate programs that I may be interested in.

    By the time my yoga program rolls around, hopefully, my personal space will be less cluttered and more organized and I will at least have some ideas percolating in my mind in regards to future education plans. Then I can write them down in the new journal my aunt got for me! It’s a beautiful journal and I’ve never had such a nice one before!

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    I hope you can see the gold detail on it in this photo above!

    IMG_3439 It also has beautiful quotes throughout the book too!

    Anyway…that’s all from me for now. Let me know in the comments if you have any quotes that inspire you!

    xx Vic

  • Speaking My Mind

    Be Yourself

    “Be who you are, not what the world wants you to be.” (anonymous)

    “For when you are you, you shine from within, and when you do, you touch hearts more than you can ever imagine.

    We are individuals, with unique thoughts; suppressing ourselves to be how the world wants us to be, only shackles us to be our diluted selves…we are more than that, we were born free…why are we conditioned to be otherwise?

    Clipping wings of our souls is not a way forward…we are born free…and we are still free…so why aren’t we just being who we truly are? Let’s be ourselves, as we have always destined to be… ”

    -from my friend, Ozlem Yikici

  • Speaking My Mind

    Feeling Gray

    I feel sad right now so I read a bunch of quotes from Pete Wentz (most are from his novel “Gray” or his novel “The Boy With The Thorn In His Side”) and I’m listening to FOB as well.  Some of these are inspiring, others are really sad…but I like them all so I posted them here so I can easily read them in the future.  Credit goes to goodreads.com for providing all these quotes in one space. 

    “Here’s to the kids.

    The kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of coke & Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party.
    Here’s to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them.
    Here’s to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars.
    Here’s to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool.
    Here’s to the kids who listened to Fall Out boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on MTV…and blame MTV for ruining their life.
    Here’s to the kids who care more about the music than the haircuts. 
    Here’s to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush.
    Here’s to the kids who hum “A Little Less 16 Candles, A Little More Touch Me” when they’re stuck home, dateless, on a Saturday night.
    Here’s to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didn’t even know they existed.
    Here’s to the kids who have read The Perks of Being a Wallflower & didn’t feel so alone after doing so.
    Here’s to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friend(s). 
    Here’s to the kids who are straight up smartasses & just don’t care.
    Here’s to the kids who speak their mind.
    Here’s to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep.
    Here’s to the kids who second guess themselves on everything they do.
    Here’s to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that.
    Here’s to the kids.
    This one’s not for the kids,
    who always get what they want,
    But for the ones who never had it at all. 
    It’s not for the ones who never got caught, 
    But for the ones who always try and fall. 
    This one’s for the kids who didnt make it, 
    We were the kids who never made it. 
    The Overcast girls and the Underdog Boys.
    Not for the kids who had all their joys. 
    This one’s for the kids who never faked it. 
    We’re the kids who didn’t make it. 
    They say “Breaking hearts is what we do best,”
    And, “We’ll make your heart be ripped of your chest” 
    The only heart that I broke was mine, 
    When I got My Hopes up too too high.
    We were the kids who didnt make it. 
    We are the kids who never made it.” 

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