In the midst of uncertainty, I will make it through. I embrace uncertainty and I enjoy every moment of the journey. I trust my intuition’s guidance and I release fear.
Six months from now, I will have attracted more abundance in my career. I will have been at my current job for a year and I will get a raise. My role will change as well because I’ll be given more responsibilities. I will be recognized for all of my hard work and I will reap the benefits of my work.
Six months from now, I will have learned more as a yoga student and I will have brought those lessons into my classes, as a yoga teacher. I will have continued to grow and challenge myself to become a better teacher for my students. I will have evolved spiritually, and I will have become more connected with my intuition.
Six months from now, all of my relationships will be positive. I will be demanding from others the respect I deserve, even if it’s uncomfortable to do so. The people that enter and stay in my life will be people that add value and love to my life. I am deserving of relationships that support me, are peaceful, and mutual.
Six months from now, I will remember how I found the love I was initially seeking from others, within myself. I will reminisce about all of the love I’ve shown myself. I will delightfully recall the dates I’ve taken myself on, the gifts I’ve purchased just because they bring me joy, and most importantly, the kindness and compassion that I’ve overwhelmed my being with.
Six months from now, I will recall all the ways in which I’ve nurtured self-love. That self-love will become part of who I am.
She texted me today
I stared dumbfounded at the screen
Unsure of what to say
“Hey, I’m fine.”
“I’m feeling happy, I’m feeling gay.”
Those bullshit words weren’t worth typing
When she hasn’t texted me in months
Yeah, she has said nothing
And suddenly she is reaching out to me
Of course it’s when I finally feel genuinely happy.
© 2014 Vic Romero
Almost a year ago, I decided to try online dating.
I had no business being online…I wasn’t looking for a relationship, and at the time I was jailbait since I was a minor.
Regardless, I made an account…it was Christmas Eve. I was at a state of depression and hopelessness I had never felt before. I had lost all my friends the year before…some weren’t really friends though. But anyway…I was lonely. The two friends that remained suffered from depression…one was hospitalized and the other on medication. I was doing my best to help them out, but my feelings were…being neglected…because they had enough shit to deal with on their own.
The feelings that consumed my head regarded my loneliness…but also my sexuality. I had been questioning it for about two years, which was when I uprooted myself from organized religion and when I began to develop feelings for a close friend, whom I’m no longer friends with because I was so embarrassed by how I felt.